Looking forward to a Better future <3

Dah lebih kurang ENAM bulan x blogging seh. Serious RINDU GILA. haha.
Okayh. Straight to the subject k?


I pray every single minute of my every day for a better future. Hurm.

In STUDIES ;

I didn't get matriks though. It is sad, but it's fate. Everything happens for reasons. And I'm going to stick with it. I pray I can make it to any great university to further my study ; in diploma programmes [ undergraduates is it? ]. Hmm. I really want to make myself busy, the busiest I can be so that I can forget anything sucks in my life. I'm scared for SURE but I look forward to it. I shud make a wise decision, once I have to and accept it without any compliments. Ke bintang! HAHA. Can't wait! (:

Building SELFCONFIDENCE ;

I shud be proud of myself but that doesn't mean I can show it to other people. I've gained my self confidence at Kem Karisma, Kuala Pilah during National Service or known as PLKN. I am such a shy person before and I am totally different NOW! SERIOUSLY! Xpercaye cntact kwn2ku ea. Haha. And it's hard for me to interact and communicate with people, especially guys (;. Seriously. Being there, I've tried my best. I shud be honest in life and be so much braver and I know I'll gain much more self confidence. I know I can! YEAY!

Yeah. Finally : In LOVE LIFE ;

This is hard. Real HARD. It plays with emotion. Honestly, I am into somebody I think, I mean I'm sure and if I have to let him go, or leave him, I'll do it. I will just leave him and InsyaAllah I will be loved someday. IT'S HARD, but I shud give myself chances to be happy without him. Without trying to fix the relationship everyday and keep guessing what his true feelings are. Without even being confuse of his actions, his words. Sometimes, I believe that talk is cheap. Huh. Just be friends and try to forget those feelings. I will let him be happy with somebody he love and don't let him hurt my feelings. To be suffering is stupid after all of this time. Believe it or not, it is freaking damn hard for me to just leave and forget because when I love someone, I will love him forever. ALWAYS. But I have to at least TRY! Ke Bintang lagi! (:. I love... Haha.


will upload some pictures nt!
Slmi.